Jaded

That's me hiding myself behind the guitar, was camera shy then, hehe. More like i had facial problems that i rather not discuss about. Got out of bed at 11something today. Mum was screaming, shouting... you name it, she did it. Argh, i dont know what to blog about. Life sucks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Hmphf!

Drifting

YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Finally found out how the hell to upload pictures onto my blog. WOOHOO!! Hooray for me! XD Anyway, that pic was taken on the 15th of March 2006, about 3 months ago. Julia still had her braces then. Look at my cheeks!!!!!! Chubby ler... Hehe! I look kinda baby-ish dont u think? Nevermind, i'll accept that unless i can afford to go for plastic surgery. But what the hell... I like the way i look!!! Screw those ppl who dont fancy me face. Hmphf! Oh ya, the first pic, from the left: my bro, Noel, my 4th grand aunt( si yi po), my 3rd grand aunt ( sum yi po) and me, at a malay wedding dinner. My paternal grandma's sister married a malay so part of the family are malays, which is quite cool if you ask me. Then again, my extended Long family has quite a number of mix, mostly chin-dians. Hehe. Hell good-looking man! Lol!

JULIA!! UPDATE LA!!! =p

Do your thang, honey!

Three cheers for ITALY!!! Hip hip, HOORAY!! Hip, hip... HOOORAAYYY!!! LOL! Italy won the 2006 FIFA world cup!! Hehehe, i heard it was a close match. Italy won through the penality shoot outs after extra time. Wow! Dad told me that France was holding possesion throughout the game. Poor France, they must be tired out... What do u expect?? A team with mostly 30 year-old players, a bunch of old farts. The team with the best endurance, WIN!!!!! GO ITALY!!!

Finally finished the book that Julia lended me, last night, The Princess Diaries2 by Meg Cabot. Meg Cabot's a wonderful author, most of the books she wrote are hilarious! All in which she protrays different characters that can be related by teenage girls nowadays. For example, The All American Girl, I just simply adore that book!!! Finished it in three days. I can totally related to the character Samantha... Maybe not entirely but yeah... Haha. Learned alot from that book, was very inspired by it and sort of changed my views on various issues, incidents and blah blah blah... you know, every day life stuff. Oh boy, i wish i could blog in peace, not that my home's not peaceful, its just that my mind's still. Mum and dad are watching Judgy Amy, good show. I dont know what's going on now in the show but it's kinda funny now, as a guy made a mickey out of Amy, and tried to confess his liking perhas to her? Hahahah. The sad thing is, he failed, poor thing..aww...

School today was fun! Julia came to school with weird looking braids,=S hehehe! She actually took an all-nighter to watch the world cup final of France VS Italy. As we all know that Italy won, she wasn't all too happy about it though. So what if Italy guys aren't that good-looking? Skill and talent counts, Julia! Hmm, maybe a wee bit of an handsome face. Hehe. Oh but hey, Ronaldhino's not handsome, but his face's on lots of stuff.. i think... I know Christiano Ronaldo models for some men's clothing line, quite...quite... erm... so so la.. I'm not really into male models anyway. Footballers? Hmm, i really like Alan Smith! That's about it... Hehe. Assembly was surprisingly short today, i didnt pay much attention as usual, good old Chia Yen's always there to update me and to give the gist on important announcements. Lol! (i know i'm bad, sorry Chia Yen, you're a good friend yea? Hehe) Went back to class, Esther abruptly woken the class with her thunderous roars! Ceh, no la, she was just singing HSM's songs. I guess she watched it last night, disney channel must have replayed it again. Cool! Oh yeah, played a 30n3 frisby match with Julia, Bhairavi, Najwa, Fara and Jess. All of us are improving!! Had a great game eventhough my team lost 5-7. Ooo oo, made my first block!!!! Wooohoo!! I'm really bad at defending, working on it, working on it. *winks*

There was nothing much during math period other than Pn Leong wanting us to hand up our corrections for the exam papers. 79%!!!!! MATH!!!! KIRSTEN!! WAKE UP!!!! *slaps ownself* Then it was recess time, boring... Carried out my usual duties at the ko-op. Ah, this is where the fun part of today begun. Pn Habibah was absent, a relief teacher came into class, she was very punctual indeed. For that whole period, Esther, Julia and I were singing our lungs out, and teacher didnt say a word! Wow! Our singing must be good! *pats self on the back* Seriously, it sounded decent!! And to Julia and I, to sound decent is very good!!! Mind you, we are all only 15 years old. I must say, Esther has pretty powerful vocals (err, obviously! with all the shouting done in class you'll need those pipes), with training, she'll be able to sing very well.

Haiya, dad's starting to nag at me liao, have to hit the sack soon, I'll make this quick. Barry and Hanisah came to me about the performance for Hari Koko, asking me to singing for them (with Hanisah). After days of hestitation, i finally said yes! With dad's adivce of course. Hehe. There's nothing like parential advices. Jess didnt seem too happy about it.. Will talk about that some other day. At least my other friends are supporting me. *sighs in relieve* Alrighty, i've gotta wash up and head for bed. Gotta re-memorise the bloody passage for tomorrow's bm aural. I'm NOT GOTTA PANIC!!!!! Keep calm... cool... whoosh... hehe.

Outcast...

Haha, that reminds me of the song "Hey ya" by Outkast.. Hehe. Haih, i cant take it anymore, have to let out some where, somehow.. I'm feeling sad... YES! Sad... very sad... I have wonderful friends.. excellent parents... a fairly good but odd brother... ceh.. nah.. Noel's great.... Yet i still feel useless and hopeless.. Totally appreciate Andy for being so nice to me... Always enjoy chatting with him.. I do feel sort of guilty for acting cold towards him, but i didnt do it intentionally... Same goes to Thashen... I duno la... Wanna talk to him also cannot... Really cant be bothered to reload my phone... He's hp's giving him problem... god knows why.. maybe he's jinxed.. (touch wood). Haih... This really sucks.. I suck big time... For all of the guys i like... I was never able to talk to ANY of them.... none... Isnt that sad.. I know i'm anti-social... Biasa la, it runs in the family, i think... I really dont know. What does it take for people to like me?? I mean... I totally appreciate my friends for excepting me for what i am.. but... *sigh* Maybe i just want attention... i want people to know more about the gd side about me... the bad side can come later... But, all i protray is the negative side, for example, the quick-tempered-ness, the seriousness, the fussiness, the ANTI-SOCIALness.....

Why cant i be happy with what i've already have? Yes i'm happy and glad, but i'm craving for more on the inside... It doesnt matter whether its the money, smarts, looks, figure...etc... i want it all! Who doesnt? No one's perfect. Thashen kept reminding me that each time i complain to him about something... most of the time are things which's somehow connected to me saying that i'm anti-social.. Its somewhat irritating when he tells me about he's fun and odd days... I tell you, it rubs me raw... Like salt against a deep fresh wound... I know i'm sensitive and i'm seriously working on it, its not nice being so intense, might just suffer from a nervous breakdown one day.

I cant help but to feel guilty... I'm so sorry Thashen... so sorry...

Its almost 2am, will have to go to bed soon. Still feeling wide awake though, that 6 hours of sleep really did me good. Haha. Hmm, there's PT class, gotta wake up early to finish up one or two PT reports... No doubt they're tough but i still have to get it done somehow. So many things to do, and so little time.. Yet i'm not getting anything done!!! What the hell's wrong?!?!?! I'm gonna go nuts if i carry on like this... *sighs* I might as well plan out a short schedule for tomorrow, i mean later in the morning.
1) wake up, do pt work.
2) practice piano
3) copy a chinese model essay
4) do Jian Bao
that's about it i think... will decide other stuff later... Now i need my beauty sleep.. Tata.

The excruciating state of blankness

Urgh, i just had to suffer from a sinus attack last evening.. Ended up not attending school today. There were only 29 people in class today, i bet our math teacher, Puan Leong will be starting on her usual nags next Monday when she sees the rest of the class. Results for the BM paper was suppose to be out today, i've got the faintest idea on my marks as i wasnt in school. Coincidently, Julia happened to skipped school today due to the fact that she woke up late. Hehe. And oh ya, she has somehow taken an interest in catapillars. How cute... =S

Anyway, i slept for approximately 6 hours this evening... Was knocked out, the throbbing pain i had was excruciating. My whole right side of my face and my shoulder felt really tight!!! I was half afraid that might turn out to be hipertension! (uncle mark gave me that idea) *sigh* The good news is, i'm feeling much better. Missed piano class today, slept right through it to be exact. Dad called up Ms Lee, might be having replacement class next Tuesday. Damn it, my pieces aint running!!! And there's only 4 months left before the actual examination. And 15 weeks to PMR!!!!! So far for my school's mid term exam, i'd scored 4 A's, 2 C's and 1 B... I've not gotten my BM marks, hopefully its a B. Its crunch time man... Gotta do serious bucking up on my music and studies. *sigh*

Nothing nice to blog about la.... Its so tough writing out my thoughts... besides, its time consuming... haih...

Put your records on, girl..

Urgh, having a bloody headache now. Feeling extremely exhausted all of a sudden, cranky... really cranky.... I dont feel good.. So many thoughts going through my mind, mostly about studies and music and... and.... my social life with friends. Mum just scolded me due to my lack of piano practice. *sigh* I really should be bucking up at this stage and not at the last minute. ARGH!! I hate feeling like this, i swear i've blogged some sort of emotional frenzy similar to this.. -.-" this sucks...

Fuck... i hate my parents.... will continue later... stay tune if you wanna...